Feel It In My Bones (plus music fix 6… Kings of Leon, Sia, Tiesto, and Lights) 30.08.2009

Wow, what a week. It’s been almost ridiculously packed and I know this post will be ridiculously long so I can write about it in full.

To start off, it was the first week of my senior year. Normally I wouldn’t be NERVOUS on the first day of school, maybe just a little anxious. But this year, for some reason I was actually nervous this year. I had good reason, though. To start with, my schedule was all kinds of fucked up. My first five classes are locked: meaning that they are the only class periods I can have them. So that means that the last two classes are available for the four classes I signed up for. Do I get these, no. I find out that I can’t get into K-level (sort of like Honors) Economics or Government because they aren’t offered 6th or 7th period. Then, I find out that I am in Personal & Family Development, which might classify as the most useless and stupid class on the face of the planet. I sat in it on the first day and thought that my brain would explode. Either way, I went to my favorite (and no longer assigned to me) counselor and halfway begged him to put my in the Anatomy class that period. Stupid decision as I thought that it was a health credit, but no matter. At least I’m not in PFD.

And then there was Wednesday when I found out that my co-editor decided to quit the website without so much as mentioning to me that he was going to. At least I found out about his change of heart before he was planning on me finding out: he wanted it to be a “surprise” he said. This was like a slap in the face, in my opinion. It was so unprofessional and cowardly and unexpected that I was taken aback. Needless to say. I didn’t really get it.

His decision now leaves me editor-in-chief of a publication that I don’t have a lot of passion for. I stumbled on a blog called “29 Until 30″ which has lately been discussing passion. It’s a fantastic blog, by the way, it just makes me feel a little incompetent, especially when it comes to the website. I want to have the passion for it, and I know I need to. But, and this is the question on my mind lately, how do you make some kind of passion when you aren’t sure WHAT to be passionate about? After deciding this past summer that I’m going to take the design route, at least for now, how do I meld that and the specifics of the website into each other?

A surprise passion, though, that arose out of the urging of my ex-co-editor and one of my closest friends, Katy, has become theatre. I’m surprised that I’m enjoying it as much as I am… at least right now. I auditioned for the first play of the year, a delightfully whimsical and romantic comedy called Almost, Maine, and got called back! It was so much fun. I hadn’t acted since freshman year, and not on stage since my 8th grade year. It was sort of momentous. And I loved it, every minute of it, even if I felt sort of awkward or self-consious (then again, when don’t I?). All in all, a rewarding experience. And what’s weird is that I REALLY want to be in this play. At first, I thought I would be content not getting a part or maybe a part in shadow cast. But now, it’s sort of like I was when I was applying for editor-in-chief: I HAVE to get a part.

UPDATE HERE: I found out that I am in shadow cast of the play, but that’s fine with me. Our director says that shadow cast members that stick with it will get their own show. I’m still excited. (:

So therein lies how busy I will be until at least Oct. 4. Rehearsals, newspaper, GSA, STAND. There’s a list of just a million different things that I want to get involved in and do and that I’ll have to find time for. But, I can do this. I believe in myself.

I guess that’s about it. I’m sorry this is more of a diary post this time, instead of offering something at least mildly insightful or deep. It’s going to be a lot harder to sit and think this year, now that all of this is happening. Here, however, is some awesome music to help you pass the time.

First is Kings of Leon. For some reason, I’ve sort of backed off on my love for them as of late. But I figure I will get into them again soon, if any indication of my re-love of this song is true. It’s called “Arizona” and it’s from their best album, in my opinion, Because of the Times.

Sia is one of those artists you stumble upon in and out. I’ve never been really BIG into her, until I heard her song “Breathe Me” a couple of weeks ago, again. And then, it was just like the love was meant to be. Here it is, off her album Colour The Small One.

The name of this blog comes from the addictive and delightful song “Feel It In My Bones” by Tiesto and featuring Tegan and Sara. It’s the first new song from them in quite a while and you guys know that any new Tegan and Sara song is fine by me. And with less than two months until the new record, AH, i’m excited. (: Here’s the song, which will be featured on the album Kaleidoscope.

Finally, I leave you with a song that I recently discovered I had on my iTunes. It’s by Lights, whose an adorable up and comer who is going to release her debut feature length The Listening. It’s just so sweet. (:

I hope you all have a great week and don’t get TOO stressed out. Remember there’s an abundance of good things that await.